Go figure

This came from my daily horroscope:

Getting heavily involved in the lives of the people you love can be a tricky thing — but it's a balance you can easily achieve today. Your sense of what is appropriate to say and do is impeccable. You understand, through your increasing compassion, exactly the right thing to tell someone in your life who is going through a blue period. You may be just starting to get a handle on what is going on around you, but you already know how things are going to pan out. Act on that.

 I really not a horroscope guy (though I check it everytime) but this one is puzzling me. Can this be true?

maybe I'll figure it out later

A chain email that I want to share…

I have never been a fan of chain emails and I never EVER sent them back nor sent them forward…

But this one struck me. But still I'm not passing it, nor sending it back, But Im posting it for everyone to see..

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one 

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

 
To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

 
To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

 
To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.

 
To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

 
To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

 
To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident.

 
Time waits for no one.

 
Treasure every moment you have.

 
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

 
To realize the value of a friend or family member :
LOSE ONE.

I have never been afraid to see death. My own death. I never even cared…I have accepted from a long time now that I may die in any minute and at least I know I have fulfilled my life the way I had been given (I really can't say the way I wanted it…) and am very thanksful of that…

What I am afraid of is losing someone, anyone, that I have been close to. It just hurts to know that you cannot do anything to save him/her. This is the reason why I share everything that I have with people who's very important to me. At least, I can say that I have made an effort to give someone comfort.

But now, something is bothering me a little bit. My sched is really hindering me from spending time with those very people and I am seeing so little of them. Im being denied the time for them. I just hope I can make up for every time I've lost. As said here, time waits for no one.

And I won't wait for time to finalize things for me…

I may be just over doing things, but It is just me expecting the worst at everyday so that when that worst come, i will be prepared. I just want people to know…

And all I want to know is that I did something worthwhile for someone else while I can still feel pain…

And i've read somewhere, "Pain is good. Pain is a friend. Cause when you still feel pain, that's the only time you know that you are still alive"

Life>Love>Pain>Friends>Family>Time>Death and everything else in between will be the only chain letter I'll be sending to everyone else.  To everyone important to me.

On the same things…

I have read that. I always look for updates and now I'm kinda struck of what she got there. So struck that I want to know how that feels…I cant' seem to know…not now, i think never, not even the time it was her.

Okay, I admit. I was only pretending at the time, or I'm now only pretending I pretended, but somehow, I was shocked that I was affected by her words for me to get what I have now…A life. I think those words did not hurt my heart but it did squash my ego. But who cares about his ego? Well, everyone, but I always disregard the fact that I had one. 

 I want to play Destiny this time. I want to just walk on by and see everyone get back together again. I just hope old friends come back together again, even the once that don't think they're friends anymore. I just hope they realize that they are really all they've got.

Even if they wont include me anymore…

How do I know when that happens? When I don't want to let a day pass without seeing THEM. Yes, THEM! I always look forward for the time I can spend with all of them…

But as for that special one…I really don't know. I've got to accept who I am first.

Thanks, len. I just hope you guys get back to what you were before. I'll take care of the life you said I should get.

^_~  (<—gaya gaya…mwahahahah)

Jargons

It was almost midnight and I am still not awake. She Had to take down my whole evening just for my brother's mistake. Why should it always be like this?

My reliability should never be stained but tonight (well should I say tomorrow), there is a chance it could be.

When I came, they were on aux 7. I wanted to also be on aux 7 but I had not logged in yet. When I logged in, it was already queuing so goodbye aux 7, hello migraine. When Did I even expect it to be this good?

Everyday it was like this. Login-schitznitz-aux5-schitznitz-logout-dinfast (well, its between dinner and breakfast, aint it?)-login-schiznitz-aux5-aux6-logout. But I need to familiarize myself with this, the same familiarization with the NIC and the CRM, BLT, NCC, AFSS and those other stuff that I have not yet used.

But today was different…

Maybe it was with my wishful thinking that everyone in the center clapped with glee. I was like "I need to solve this. Why are they clapping? Is it christmas already?". Then she didn't answer my question. She seemed to have lost me. Or rather, I lost her. I wasn't able to save my interaction and my docus and then then, with perfect realization, I clapped with the rest.

"Avaya Down?" Vance said. I nodded.

A commotion erupted in the powerzone right after that. Ram made us gather together so that we wont be scattered. Chatting our way through the why the servers were down and what happened in Taiwan or something.

"Gusto ko sa team nyu!" Roni said. "EOP" rani replied. We all laughed.

She blushed. I couldn't reply. If only I could say "Gusto ko rin na dito ka" but obviously I can't. I just said "ikaw sana muse namin" and stayed silent.

I hate love triangles. Specially when your between the two and you don't know who you are….

Hahahah…Jargons. At least no one outside can understand them.

I’m 19 FGS…

argh! The irony of me wanting to be young the longest time is taking its toll on me again. Can't they realize that I need my own space and I need to have time away from work?

Shucks. all they see is that "you need rest" but they dont realize all I need is my space and I'll be alright.

I never thought that my job will have a bad impact on me. But now that I'm seeing it…

I think I'll take the angry advice of my 'father', I think I'll live on my own once I get the chance. maybe that's why my 'mother' will not let me go…

Okay. Its quite complicated. Even I cant comprehend.