Smiley Galore

In the past few weeks, I have been so sulked in my misery that I cannot even have one good game of DotA with my friends. I always assume that I am lonely. I always assume that I always need to be with my barkada, then everything turns out that I cannot join their fun if they are complete. Ironically, when I am avail, they are not there. I even poured my heart out over two bottles of SanMigLight one night that I didn’t even realize that I don’t like its taste. Yeah, awful, but I managed to do it. I don’t know how.

Talk about adding to your depression, huh? 

Anyway, that triggered my cyclothymia I guess… I hate being hurt. I hate being always down. I don’t want to be the doormat anymore.  Thus, I decided to change for the better. Transition has never been so much  better.

Well, I just realized I am not alone. Heck, I have my Mom to take care of, and she needs me and I need her more than anything. Also, even though I am in an off-schedule back at the office, I still have people to talk to… and kulitan to the max even though we are on call… Hahaha… napagalitan nga kami minsan dahil narinig kami nung customer… Nyahahah… Palo!

I hope this continues. I like the feeling of always smiling rather than always tearful. Well, yeah, in tough times you cannot avoid those tears, lalo na for me… because my tears are shallow. Damn, Maala-ala Mo Kaya can make me cry, dammit! Then you experience the same "Maala-ala mo Kaya" scenes in real life, I cannot stop myself from sulking, let alone crying. Damn, I even cried in front of the whole office! Not bad for the Artista in me…

But sulking did me nothing. Now I am not ‘really’ happy but at least, I know I have a lot of hope. And faith. And faithful friends.  And a loving family. And an inspiration.And money… ay… un pla wala na sa ngayon…

Well, Life is really a wheel of fortune. What happens to one event will impact the others. It is up to us to decide if we would like to be struck by the lightning that can kill us, or the lightning that can make us shine (meron ba nun? ^_^) .

My point being, Feeling lonely for yourself will do you no good. I had to learn that the hard way, but everyone gets the point, don’t you? It is not simple to take our misery away, but once you do that, you have no reason to be miserable anymore (well, unless you decide to go back, that is!). Don’t let others ruin your outlook, Share and count your blessings, Tell people you love them before it is too late, Party and have fun. That’s all there is to it.

Smileys can do it… then so can we!!! I can do it! I can get though this with the people I love. I have to be strong. I just need one thing.  And only I knows what that is… So go ahead and figure… Nyahahahahahah~~

Hey! I’m just joking. Don’t take me too seriously!!

PS: I just realized. I.ph does not have any smileys at all… How sad.