Much has been seen, said and done

" Why is the concept of   acceptance and belief so hard to grasp. It is as if you are trying to catch the vision of a mirage and trying to drink from it's pure waters. I know I am not the one that you think I am, but no one can ever change that fact. I chose this path, I will stand by it, and I con't care what ever you say or do to me, I just hope you understand"

 Do you see that? That is, literally, my hand. I marked myself as a demon of my own sins, for I am living a sinful life. My cross is so small now that I won't be able to use it as a bridge of hope and will need to start from scratch to pick up each little cross that I threw on my way, and put them back together again.

Ahaha…Tama na ang senti. Alam kong they know better than that. I can trust them with my life pero hindi tama ang isip ko, so it's mainly not their fault. Hay naku, It's all just a matter of perspective. Kaya minsan inaamin ko na lang na ako'y isang paganong bading e. Hehehe…

 This is why sometimes I both hate and love being a Bigot.

Enuf about my preferences. Anyway, since this is my first post here with the new version, marami sana akong ikukwento. Pero inaantok na ang katawan ko, Buti na lang may diwa pa ako. Nakatulog pa lang ako ng mga 2-3 hours, then went direct to play. Okay, Lets just put it this way…

I am living in a "plenty" right now. Meaning, I have so much  money in my pocket that I don't mind eating at Jolibee or KFC every lunch break, and take note, that is not the only time I eat. Ay sus…Tumataba na nga ako e. Buti na lang may stress at pagod na magpapapayat sayo. Bawi bawi lng yan.

Anyhoo, It seems that earning money has it's advantages. First, I learned to start anew and be exactly myself at work. Well, not exactly coz that would cause a hell lot of commotion but at least I now can find the guts to tell myself that I am worthy of other people's respect, even though I am different. Because, in a vampire industry such as a call center line of business, the lifestyle is so diverse that you get all sorts of cultures poured into just one night.

Another thing is that, I can now get the things I want, and not just look around and wish for things to come true. I am becoming so vain now that I cannot even handle myslelf. Well, just need to be presentable, at least. I may sound so materialistic here but This is a material world, and I am living in the now. I will take on spirituality before I die, i guess. Told you I am sinful…

And another thing about money now is that it takes my purpose away. It is NOT a good thing. It is like cancer, it will take you down after a few years. This is the reason why I often give, to the point of being a martyr. Maybe it is just my nature but sometimes it is foolish. Haha…i know people are taking advantage of me…but hell, I take advantage o' them also. I'ts always two way for me. They just don't know my ways…

And also, earning money took my inspiration away. Shout out ko nga…

Wala na akong inspirasyon para sa kahit ano. NASAN KA NA BA KASI?!

Bakit ba puro pera ang laman ng utak ko ngayon? siguro kasi kaka sweldo ko lang. Siguro kasi gusto ko nang bumili ng Tarot cards. Siguro kasi nanalo ako ng $450 Travel Voucher (Yup Guys~ thats US dollars!). Siguro kasi may gusto akong gawin sa pera ko hindi ko lang alam. Siguro kasi wala lang ako magawa.

Sino Gusto Palibre??

Hayan, Libre ako.