Of Rants and Reeds

Mask

December 17, 2006

Eyes ever seeing, blind yet seeking
Ive never seen the light in front of me
Static and White, I will never be
The one I ought to be

Black butterflies in the spotlight
I could never reach it
It's so beautiful yet
I could never catch it's breathe

Do you need to?

The mirror looks back
And it seems to know you better
You could not recognize who it is
But it mocks you…

…just by looking

You get out of the cold shade of darkness
But with something to cover you
Something to hide the reality
That no one should see

and no one will…

Im standing here shocked and still
With nothing more to say
Hiding and still faceless
behind a thousand masks

Posted by dextrobant at 9:49 pm | permalink | Add comment

Kung mamalasin k nga naman…

Its not that I hate these days, its just that its so ironic that something would be gone when you really need it. Shucks… all I need is sonething to keep me awake for 9 hrs in the graveyard shift and POOF my spill proof mug broke (or rather it became cocokrunch >.<). And I need some cash to buy a gift for my sister's husband but DAMMIT no banks and tellers are open! They're suppose to be 24hrs but now I lack money. Good thing I have no work tomorrow, coz if there is, I would not have fare as well.

 And, sorry bout this, I've heard of another person's happiness and for some grotesque reason, (grotesque<–maybe too brutal) it just made me jealous. Maybe it's just the B.I. in me that still doesn't resolve. Or maybe its just the fact that I've been trying (and miserably failing) that very same thing and I cant seem to get it right. Why can't I get it right? maybe because there are conflicting postulates in my mind…one is right and the other would defy. I dont know what to do anymore…

 Then this topic yesterday had to crop up and I heard a message (coming from 'someone') that kinda points at me…well, not really directly but, you know, it goes there. They really don't know coz I dont actually tell them. Hahaha… but it somehow stopped something from me… Well, I guess they will know that when the right time comes…

Kung mamalasin k nga naman…minsan alam mong mali na pero iniisip at ginagawa m parin. kahit minsan yun ang makakasira sa tingin sa iyo ng ibang tau e kailangan mo pa ring sundin…nakatago pero sinusunod pa rin… dahil lang iyon ang pagkatao m…iyun ang tunay na ikaw. Alam mong hindi ka nila matatangap sa ganun pero wala ka nang magagawa. Magpaliwanag? siguro. bahala na cla kung anong iisipin nila. lumayo sila kung gusto nila…desisyon nila yun…magalit sila kung magalit…d ko cla mapipigilan. Pero sana hindi nmn nila ko husgahan. Ako to. natangap ko na to mula pa noong araw na iyun na nakompirma ko ang lahat…hahaha…

Hindi ko na ikukento ang lahat. D pa panahon. D pa dapat. Magsasaya muna ako hanggat kasama ko ang mga tao sa paligid ko. Hanggat hindi pa nila kilala ang nasa harap nila…hanggat kaya ko pang magtago. Sa tamang panahon, desisyon na nila kung kasamahin pa ako o hindi. Kung matangap nila ako…tama ako. Kung nde, bahala na.

tae. ilang buwan na lang twenteen na ako pero kumusta naman ang buhay…hindi ko pa alam ang pwedeng mangyari.

Nasaan k n b kasi? Hindi ko alam kung cno ka at kung nandito ka na pero gusto ko nang makilala ka. Sana lang hindi ka tulad ni Juan…puro ego at walang utak. Puro conventional, walang realistic. Puro…ideal…

Kung mamalasin ka nga naman…

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